UPDATE FROM KELLY

I think the hardest form of obedience, is obeying when it doesn’t make logical sense. God and I, often have conversations where I think through what I perceive to be the best solutions or most practical course of action, and He goes “That’s great, but today I went you to do something else” It can feel frustrating because I don’t see how His version of A+B=C. It’s in those moments I have to put myself aside, and although it’s necessary, that isn’t an easy thing to do when I don’t see how this fits the end goal.

I don’t see how this fits the end goal.

This last week has been no different;I had my plans in place. I told God what I was gonna do, and I felt strongly He was saying: “I want you to focus on some other tasks this week”. Most of which have been admin related tasks that take time, to think and pray through, but don’t produce much visible results for anyone to see. “God why does this have to be done right now, when I see more important tasks in front of me.”

The response, telling me to change ,what I thought made the most sense, frustrated me; even though we have been moving forward on projects and have seen a lot of progress with the building the past 5 months. The day to day stuff seems slow, and I so badly want to work on bigger projects; More to share with friends, More to get people excited with us. I want big exciting updates. Albeit, This month has been a blur of a lot of exciting things. We have been non stop going; fixing the oven, ordering materials, working on the property, building relationships, investing time in to the community. However, it never feels exciting enough, and I don’t always know how to share what we are doing out here. This week we are awaiting materials to arrive and parts to come in, for flooring that will make for “Bigger” updates, but until then I want to fill the small gap with more work in a way that makes sense. Shareable moments. I want to try and push forward to accomplish tasks, even if I don’t have all the tools to finish them yet. I just want to do, and I didn’t want to be told to hold off.

I was reading through Joshua and took note: God didn’t tell Joshua to knock the walls down, God told Joshua to obey. Joshua didn’t labor attacking the wall with big machines or have to tear the bricks down one by one. Joshua was told to march around the city. Which sounds so silly. and counter-intuitive. If I were Joshua, I imagine myself saying “God, i don’t know if I heard you right. We need to remove the wall, not go for a walk. I would prefer a task that makes sense to the whole wall-coming-down goal”

All this to say, Im constantly being reminded that He’s got this, and I need to do it His way. Even if it seems illogical, it will produce better results. When God says to do something it’s my job to listen, and do it quickly. When I obey the calling God has placed on my life, I can trust that He will do the heavy lifting to fulfill the promises He has made. That takes the burden off my shoulders.If I’m doing it Gods way, there will be walls torn down. My role in this season isn’t to force labor, but to obey and be faithful with where I am at and do the tasks He gives me daily.

I’m not sure how doing the admin work will help with the tasks ahead, but I do know I trust Him to see the end goal.

I trust Him to see the end goal,

and I would rather do it His way.